This is the first time I'm blogging. Not sure what can I share with you all. My life is rather simple and yet complex.. hmm.. sounds paradoxical, but that's what life is isn't it? Who doesn't want to live life simply?
When I was a little boy, I used to dream about my life in the future - have a good career, earning big bucks, has a big house, married with a loving wife, and how I would play with my kids and grow old with them...
But as I grow a little older each time, slowly I began to learn that this is all a little too simple and it won't happen in my life. How can there be a life without worries like those in my dreams? All of us shoulder different responsibilities which usually circulate around certain key areas in our lives: family, study, career, loans. The thought of just a few of them are good enough to bring revelation that Mediacorp drama, disneyland fairytales, and stories alike are not possible to happen in most people's lives unless we are rich.. not just rich but Very rich.. but then again... can rich people REALLY live a SIMPLE life? hmm..
Then I wonder what are all this fuss about?! Why not just live, be happy and die? die then die lah.. no big deal!
Actually "fear" is the main culprit. Dun believe? How about fear of loneliness? Fear of losing your love ones, fear of not being able to make ends meet, fear of being poor, fear of what people will think of you, fear of not being able to take good care of your family, fear of sickness - especially for papa and mama, fear of not doing well in study, fear of maintaining your grades, fear of disappointing people who place their hopes on you, fear of not being able to secure a good career, fear of retiring loans... this list goes on. Just when you thought you have a solution for a fear, which is the cause of another fear, new fear arises.
The thoughts of all these are scary.. but really glad that I have found God in my life. The funny thing is that God didn't give me any concrete solutions or make life simpler for that matter of fact. Instead He makes me realised there are more problems and responsiblity in my life that I had knew I had. With His grace, I began to look at my life with clearer understanding. Fears and problems still do exist, and they really do, in fact new problems surface after I came to know God. But these make Jesus all the more real in my life as I wrestle together with Him through each turning point in my life - something that I have never experienced for the first 18 years of my life. Now everyday I'm learning, learning to appreciate life and the people around me, and making sense out of every ups and downs. The difference from now and then, is that there is Hope at the end of the day, Hope that only comes from God. Knowing that He loves me, this Hope never fails. I had found my Hope. Have you?
When I was a little boy, I used to dream about my life in the future - have a good career, earning big bucks, has a big house, married with a loving wife, and how I would play with my kids and grow old with them...
But as I grow a little older each time, slowly I began to learn that this is all a little too simple and it won't happen in my life. How can there be a life without worries like those in my dreams? All of us shoulder different responsibilities which usually circulate around certain key areas in our lives: family, study, career, loans. The thought of just a few of them are good enough to bring revelation that Mediacorp drama, disneyland fairytales, and stories alike are not possible to happen in most people's lives unless we are rich.. not just rich but Very rich.. but then again... can rich people REALLY live a SIMPLE life? hmm..
Then I wonder what are all this fuss about?! Why not just live, be happy and die? die then die lah.. no big deal!
Actually "fear" is the main culprit. Dun believe? How about fear of loneliness? Fear of losing your love ones, fear of not being able to make ends meet, fear of being poor, fear of what people will think of you, fear of not being able to take good care of your family, fear of sickness - especially for papa and mama, fear of not doing well in study, fear of maintaining your grades, fear of disappointing people who place their hopes on you, fear of not being able to secure a good career, fear of retiring loans... this list goes on. Just when you thought you have a solution for a fear, which is the cause of another fear, new fear arises.
The thoughts of all these are scary.. but really glad that I have found God in my life. The funny thing is that God didn't give me any concrete solutions or make life simpler for that matter of fact. Instead He makes me realised there are more problems and responsiblity in my life that I had knew I had. With His grace, I began to look at my life with clearer understanding. Fears and problems still do exist, and they really do, in fact new problems surface after I came to know God. But these make Jesus all the more real in my life as I wrestle together with Him through each turning point in my life - something that I have never experienced for the first 18 years of my life. Now everyday I'm learning, learning to appreciate life and the people around me, and making sense out of every ups and downs. The difference from now and then, is that there is Hope at the end of the day, Hope that only comes from God. Knowing that He loves me, this Hope never fails. I had found my Hope. Have you?
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